one day i'll fly away

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sometimes i wish
that everything would just...
stop

today was actually mostly ok. i went to mum's school and took photos of the kids for sal. it was good.

and then in the afternoon...
it's like i can feel the entire weight of the future on my shoulders right now.
all the dreams that will probably never be.
all the uncertainty.

it's crushing me.

i just want, i just want, i don't even know anymore.
i am tired.

but right now i need to pick myself up and go face the world, or at least a part of it. because there are people out there who count on me.

i can hardly still my mind long enough to hear myself think.
tomorrow.
tomorrow will be better.
it has to be.